Dancing With Love

Today is November 11th.  11:11

This is a great day for manifestation because the 11:11 number represents portals, or gateways, to Heaven.  Today is a day to focus on what you wish to manifest in life.  Focus your thoughts on what you want and desire.  Also take the time to "feel" what you want.  The combination of thinking and feeling will bring about your desires more quickly.  

If you cannot feel what you want quite yet, then ask God or your angels to show you.  A very powerful prayer is: Show Me. 

Show Me how to bring more divine love into my life.

Show Me how to find the best job that aligns with my talents and abilities.

Show Me the most beautiful way for me to make money.

Show Me how to attract the love of my life.

Show Me how true happiness feels.

... and the prayers can go on and on.  Whatever works best for you.

I offer another thought about manifestation.  We must be responsible for what we wish to create in this world.  Just because we have the God-given ability to manifest our desires does not mean we get to go around calling forth whatever we want without consequences.

Consider a man who wishes to manifest a new car.  He thinks about his new car, he feels himself driving it, he imagines how other people will react when they see it and so on.  However, is that truly what he needs?  Cars require a lot of resources from the earth in order to be made and to run.  They require oil and gas/petrol and spew a lot of toxins into the air.  Is this really something we wish to be manifesting?  Therefor, ask yourself what it is that you really want.  If you truly need a car, than please make sure your ability to create is used wisely and call forth a car that is fuel efficient.  Also send blessings to everyone who built the car, along with their families, send blessings to all the people in the world who have had great ideas about how to make cars that don't require any oil or petrol.  Pray that those people's ideas are allowed to manifest and that soon you will be one of the first people who is able to financially support these inventors by buying one of their non-toxic vehicles.  

Or perhaps it is not a car you truly desire, perhaps it is the feeling of owning something new.  Or the desire to have your friends be envious of your wealth.  Dig deeply into your desire and know what it is you are craving.  Because if a man asks for a car, but what he really wants is acknowledgement and love, then his manifestation will cause destruction.  This man would benefit from knowing himself better and realizing that he is craving acknowledgement and love and ask God, "Show me how it feels to be powerfully acknowledged and deeply loved."  That is a prayer God would answer in a heart beat, literally.

Accepting the Inner Maddness

Today God taught me a beautiful lesson.  I would like to share it with you.  During a deep meditation, I came across a dark character inside of my subconscious mind.  It had the flavor of a nightmare, but I forced myself to look at it.  However, the more I focused on it, the more the darkness dissipated and my initial fear retreated.
This "character" was a trickster.  She had crazy hair and wild eyes.  But instead of shaking off her disturbing image as "not me" I embraced her.  She melted into my arms and compassion washed over me.  In that gentle moment of self-acceptance, God's Light flooded in and His Thoughts came to me, "Self-acceptance is the key to self-love."
Somehow I immediately remembered how much I hated myself when I was younger.  A rough childhood and stormy early adult years left me constantly feeling broken and unworthy.  I felt lost and out of control of my life.  However, instead of reaching for God, buckling down and healing old wounds, I chose to get married instead.  I thought, "Isn't it easier to focus on someone else rather than face the inner quagmire of self-hatred?"  In fact, I not only got married, I gave up myself completely and adopted the life style of my husband as to avoid looking at Who I Am.  I became the person he wanted me to be.  I surrendered my wisdom to his choices and decisions.  I abandoned myself to his future, instead of insisting on building my own.
By no means is this a criticism of him.  No!  He was running away from himself too, he just expressed it differently.
But today, in my meditation, God explained something extremely important.  God told me:  "Human-to-human love cannot be authentic until there is Love between God-to-human.
Until you know and understand Real Love from God, you cannot direct it towards another person. Instead, what you direct towards another person is need, not love. It might feel like love, but it's not... until, and unless, you allow it to come into you from God first."

Now, I will teach this to my children.

A Message from God about Life and Death

Dear Friends,
Today I did a brief Shamanic journey with a skilled friend and during the journey, God's Light came into my thoughts and gave me a powerful message.
Many things have died in my life this year, as well as many new beginning have graced my space.  God said to me:

A part of spiritual mastery is being able to accept death.  This acceptance of death is a peaceful way of "being".  We need not push death away, ignore it, condemn nor reject it.  Once we can be in the space of accepting that everything dies eventually, then we can let go of expectations and allow new life to gently take over.  All death is an important component of a cycle, like night and day.  They work together harmoniously to bring life to one another.  Without the ending of day, we cannot experience the beauty of night, and without the rising of the sun to melt away the night, then we cannot be warmed and refreshed by the daylight.  This cycle brings forth the passage of time, for every night is different and every day is new.  They are never the exact same night and day.  This is because life grows during this cycle.  Every day brings new height to a baby tree and every night brings new new learning for a baby owl. 
All of death returns to life, maybe not in the exact same form, but it does return.
This, however, is not the same as killing.  Killing and murder are the forcing of death, which is an entirely different energy.  This energy does not spark growth nor love.
So allow yourself to sit quietly in the mist of an ending, a death, and allow the ashes to rain down upon you without trying to stop it, fix it or change it.  Just allow it to happen.  This allowance will cause the ashes to becomes seeds around you which will then grow into new life more swiftly than if you tried to control the process.  We cannot predict the exact nature of this new life, but by Being with it, you allow life to return effortlessly.

Surrendering to God

Surrendering to God seems easy, in theory.  The words sound pretty and the concept seems honorable and it makes us looks good to others.  We can say, "I've surrendered all of my problems to God."  This statement might make us seem open and pious, but does it really work that way?

Truly surrendering to God is not always easy.  It can be an agonizing process of breaking down the ego and admitting that we don't have all the answers.

And what does it mean to truly surrender to God anyway?

Surrender is reaching inside of ourselves to bring the Light of God into those dark places, the ones that are deeply hidden away from the rest of the world.  Surrender is showing God our guilt, shame, ugliness and mistakes.  It is admitting to God that not every part of ourselves is love and that not every thought in our mind is pleasant.  Surrender is letting God see Who We Are all the way through and allowing God to cleanse us with warmth and Light. 
Surrender is allowing God to take over a situation and committing to avoid complaint about the result. 

True surrender can be quite scary!  We don't know the outcome and we cannot predict where we will end up.  Yet there is massive beauty here too.  It is like throwing ourselves into a river and trusting that the rushing waters will somehow know us and take care of our well-being.  Trusting God is also loving God.  It is the ultimate love for God.  This is because God is our Co-Creator.  God is our best friend.  God knows our soul and ignores the ego-mind that just wants to fight and be right all the time.  Surrendering to God is admitting that we don't have all the answers and don't know the solutions and are asking for our Friend to step in and remind us that we are human.

Surrendering to God is Love.  And Love is what is scary.  This is because True Love is not passive.  It is highly potent and calls us powerfully into action.  Love is action.  Love is movement.  Love is speaking up for the weak and having compassion for the guilt, shame, ugliness and mistakes.  Love is accepting the truth.  Love is reaching out and making contact with the world and offering only good and peace.  Love is stepping out of our comfort zone and being of service to others.  Love is creating an environment around us that is strong and healthy.  Love is making a contribution to the world... and most of us are too lazy to do this.  And this is why surrender can be scary, because it requires more of us than we are used to giving.

Creating Change in Our Lives

Recently I received a beautiful message from my angels.  They taught me that there are only two ways to change things in our lives:  death or birth.

They went on to explain that all of us go through times in our lives when it seems like everything is changing. Or we run up against times in our lives when everything needs to change.  Relationships end, jobs come and go, children grow up, or we need to move to a new city.  During these times, we have a clear and distinct choice, we can either pull out our sword, start swinging destructively and chop portions of our life to pieces, or we can choose re-birth. 

Re-birth takes longer.  It can be more painful.  It can be more challenging and cause us to look at ourselves in depth.  It requires patience.

Death, on the other hand, is immediate, but it is also permanent.  There is no going back and killing off relationships or situations in our lives can cause a ripple effect of destruction.  It can leave other people deeply hurt and confused.  There is the expression "burning bridges" and this is what my angels were talking about: complete destruction instead of transformation and re-birth.

Re-birthing ourselves in our lives can be tough at first, yet it has the most powerful and beautiful rewards.  We become whole new people.  We begin a whole new life.  In fact, we earn the ability to "give life" to every corner of our lives.  This is called Inspiration, which means: to breath life into a relationship, and idea or a situation.

But burning bridges leaves nothing but ashes and there is a high price to pay for leaving people hurt and feeling destroyed.

The angels also told me about giving life to Love so that Love gives Life to you.  Choose the path of Love.  Sure it can be tougher sometimes, yet it opens up possibilities instead of crushing them.  There might not be immediate gratification, but there will be miracles. 

And if you find yourself in the place of needing to let go of a relationship or a situation, consider doing it with Love and grace.  Give everyone involved dignity instead of pain.  Proverbial blood is not the pathway to God, only Love lines that road.

Digesting Emotions

My 13 year old son has been going through a lot of change and turmoil in his life.  He is entering the age of trying to figure out how to navigate through tough emotions and challenging situations.  Someone close to him suggested that it is bad to talk about his emotions.  This confused him.  He was upset with me because I have always taught him that talking about emotions and feelings is how we process and heal.  I told him the contrary was true, that by avoiding emotions, they get stuffed down inside our body and this causes sickness and depression. 

I sat my son down and told him that talking about our feelings is healthy.  I told him that the way we heal is through conversation.  Conversation is how we connect to those we love and is a powerful way to let another person know that we care about him or her.  Once we speak our thoughts and feelings into the Universe, then we have room to either embrace them or transform them.  This process does not have to be scary or bad.  In fact, it is empowering and full of self-care.  The key here is not to "fear" our emotions.  Even the tough or uncomfortable emotions and feelings need to be digested and understood in order to give us the freedom to move forward, lest we get stuck in one particular emotion and end up wallowing in it for days, months or even years.  True pain comes from not feeling empowered within ourselves and not giving ourselves the space to feel.

Releasing the Inner Child

Sometimes the inner child just needs love and acknowledgment.  By taking the time to meditate, we can give  our inner child permission to speak and to be heard.  As adults, we need to allow the past traumas to heal by guiding our inner child into the light. S/he has been hiding away from monsters far too long.  Lovingly let her know that the monsters are gone now and that she can come out to radiate her brilliance and empower her to grow up and be a strong adult.  Believe me, she is tired of hiding.  She needs to take your hand and know the sensations of comfort and safety.  Let her cry.  Allow her to be angry or frightened, but also allow her to heal and stand up tall.  S/he is your powerful ally and she needs you to be her hero.