Happy New Year 2015!

Once I gave in, gave up, and lowered my defenses, I allowed God to see into me, to see inside of me. And the more I allowed God to look, I realized that I have been made up of more pain than anything else, not just pain from recent events, but from my whole life, all the way down to early childhood. I realized that I have been keeping God from seeing that pain, thinking that I was protecting God from my ugly, dark secrets, but I was wrong. God sees it anyway. So once I opened up and surrendered and allowed God to fully enter my inner landscape and step inside of all that pain... do you know what happened? Suddenly I felt a whoosh of Unconditional Love rush towards me and through me. It raced into the dark, hidden crevasses of my heart and mind. God was not ashamed of me. God forgave me. God washed my insides clean. God freed me.
This has now become my regular mediation routine, to allow God to see into every tiny part of myself. The results? I have felt incredible! My dreams have been full of Light and empowerment! At random moments during the day I feel God's presence and know that I am ok. I always have been and I always will be.
The same goes for you.
Now, I have committed to God to move forward with this Light, to live with it and to share it. Because I clearly see it now: why else would we be here?

Happy New Year :)

Keep Your Heart Open to Everyone

This evening I had a beautiful angel reading with an amazing woman who lives in Brooklyn, New York.  And if you've been following my blog, you know how much I love to write about love.  It is something that fascinates me and I seek to learn as much as I can about how to works in our lives.
During this reading, this woman's angels began talking to her about keeping her heart open to everyone in her life.  At first, this information did not resonate with the woman because she immediate thought that love meant sexual/romantic realitionships and she didn't want to "keep her heart open" for that kind of relationship with everyone.  But here is what the angels said:

You are talking about two different things here.  Keeping your heart open, and sexual/romantic relationships are two different things.  When we say, "Keep your heart open to everyone," we are talking about a very high spiritual level of existence.  Imagine that you have died.  We know this sounds morbid right now, but play along... imagine that you have died, and you are in heaven meeting every single person you met during your life.  Imagine the joy and the relief of seeing them all again in such a healing space.  Now, imagine that you not only get to meet these people again and celebrate, but that you also get to say to them, "What did I contribute to your life because I lived with my heart open to you?  What were you able to accomplish simply because I refused to stop loving you?"
How would that conversation go?  What if people were able to say back to you, "All of my dreams came true because you refused to stop loving me!"  Or imagine people being able to say to you, "Your love gave me the strength and the perseverance to believe in myself and accomplish all of my goals."  What if everyone you encountered in heaven got to say to you, "Thank you!  Thank you!  Thank you!"
This is what "keeping your heart open to everyone" means when the angels say it to you.  It means that you let people go, you allow them to live their lives, you give them space, you never hold back and you believe in them so strongly that the Universe hears your call and follows your prayers immediately.  Keeping your heart open to everyone means giving them a chance to succeed whether you are there to share in the victory or not.

Are you an alien?

So many people want to know about aliens.  Who are they and why are they here?  The answers are more simple than you might realize.  Some of the beings we call "aliens" are your very own ancestors.  I prefer to call these beings "star beings."
How can they be our ancestors if they are from another planet?  Because your ancestors were not simple-minded cave-dwellers who could barely rustle up enough brain power to rub sticks together to start a fire.  Your ancestors were highly advanced, immensely intelligent people who lived closely with the Divine Creator.  They lived in harmony with the earth and valued life instead of taking it.  This information is in The Ringing Cedars of Russia books written by Vladimir Megre. 
The books are worth the read, but to save you some time, I offer this simple glimpse into our True History as Divine Beings.  We have been lied to about our origins.  Our current culture is not the height of human development, in fact, technology is a sign of a diminishing intelligence and a disconnection from Source.  Once the human race becomes dependent on technology, we stop thinking for ourselves and rely on some computer to think for us.  In short, once we begin relying on the ideas of other people instead of cherishing our own, we are going downhill, and technology is "other people's ideas" and other people's way of living life.  When you stop to think about it, you might begin to see how much of your time and mental energy goes into running someone else's system rather than designing and inventing your own way of being.  And I believe that the true way of being is living in harmony with Source and Life, not with metal, plastic and fiber optics.
The true origins of the human race is pristine, whole and complete, fully aware, loving and intelligent beings who treasured the earth and all it's inhabitants as the direct results of the thoughts and intentions of God.

Your ancestors were so advanced that they knew how to leave the planet and extend their love throughout the cosmos.  Thousands of years ago they figured out the secret (which is explained in the before mentioned book series) and they used Divine Thought to move themselves around the universe.  They settled onto hospitable planets and began growing and expanding and building new communities with the same essence of the Divine Mind.   This type of loving growth and expansion was a part of the Creator's plan (not killing each other off like what humans have been doing for generations).

Not all the creatures from other planets are on the earth with loving intentions.  In fact, some of them have been down right nasty buggers.  However, the good and loving beings who have been reaching out and contacting people on earth are usually reaching out to their own family members.  These are families that have been created during back and forth travels through space... and when I say "space" I don't mean the huge night sky, I mean the quantum physics space of instant travel over long or short distances, the kind of space that bends over and across itself and allows for travel of all sorts.  Our ancestors knew all about this.  They knew more than we do now.  And not only did they know about quantum physics, space and interstellar travel, they also knew about folk medicine, healing herbs, humanely raising animals and powerfully loving their children. 

You might wonder:  Then how did all of this knowledge get lost?  The answer is in the Ringing Cedars of Russia books.  But know that the downfall of the human race was intentional, systematic, cruel and unrelenting.  The way the Bible teaches us that we now live in a fallen world... well, we do, and if we had any idea of how far we have fallen, everyone would go insane with grief.  But instead of pondering what "could have been", take the time to free your mind, meditate daily, connect with God, know Who You Are and uncover your true skills and abilities.  Live as a good steward of the earth and all it's inhabitants.  Know that you have powerful ancestors out in the universe who are reaching out to you through your thoughts and feelings.  They want you to Re-Member with them.  They seek unity.  And the more you know about yourself and your abilities as a Divine Child of God, the more you can hear them, see them and discover how deeply you are loved and cherished.  It is much more difficult to control and lie to someone who deeply knows how much he is loved.

Dancing With Love

Today is November 11th.  11:11

This is a great day for manifestation because the 11:11 number represents portals, or gateways, to Heaven.  Today is a day to focus on what you wish to manifest in life.  Focus your thoughts on what you want and desire.  Also take the time to "feel" what you want.  The combination of thinking and feeling will bring about your desires more quickly.  

If you cannot feel what you want quite yet, then ask God or your angels to show you.  A very powerful prayer is: Show Me. 

Show Me how to bring more divine love into my life.

Show Me how to find the best job that aligns with my talents and abilities.

Show Me the most beautiful way for me to make money.

Show Me how to attract the love of my life.

Show Me how true happiness feels.

... and the prayers can go on and on.  Whatever works best for you.

I offer another thought about manifestation.  We must be responsible for what we wish to create in this world.  Just because we have the God-given ability to manifest our desires does not mean we get to go around calling forth whatever we want without consequences.

Consider a man who wishes to manifest a new car.  He thinks about his new car, he feels himself driving it, he imagines how other people will react when they see it and so on.  However, is that truly what he needs?  Cars require a lot of resources from the earth in order to be made and to run.  They require oil and gas/petrol and spew a lot of toxins into the air.  Is this really something we wish to be manifesting?  Therefor, ask yourself what it is that you really want.  If you truly need a car, than please make sure your ability to create is used wisely and call forth a car that is fuel efficient.  Also send blessings to everyone who built the car, along with their families, send blessings to all the people in the world who have had great ideas about how to make cars that don't require any oil or petrol.  Pray that those people's ideas are allowed to manifest and that soon you will be one of the first people who is able to financially support these inventors by buying one of their non-toxic vehicles.  

Or perhaps it is not a car you truly desire, perhaps it is the feeling of owning something new.  Or the desire to have your friends be envious of your wealth.  Dig deeply into your desire and know what it is you are craving.  Because if a man asks for a car, but what he really wants is acknowledgement and love, then his manifestation will cause destruction.  This man would benefit from knowing himself better and realizing that he is craving acknowledgement and love and ask God, "Show me how it feels to be powerfully acknowledged and deeply loved."  That is a prayer God would answer in a heart beat, literally.

Accepting the Inner Maddness

Today God taught me a beautiful lesson.  I would like to share it with you.  During a deep meditation, I came across a dark character inside of my subconscious mind.  It had the flavor of a nightmare, but I forced myself to look at it.  However, the more I focused on it, the more the darkness dissipated and my initial fear retreated.
This "character" was a trickster.  She had crazy hair and wild eyes.  But instead of shaking off her disturbing image as "not me" I embraced her.  She melted into my arms and compassion washed over me.  In that gentle moment of self-acceptance, God's Light flooded in and His Thoughts came to me, "Self-acceptance is the key to self-love."
Somehow I immediately remembered how much I hated myself when I was younger.  A rough childhood and stormy early adult years left me constantly feeling broken and unworthy.  I felt lost and out of control of my life.  However, instead of reaching for God, buckling down and healing old wounds, I chose to get married instead.  I thought, "Isn't it easier to focus on someone else rather than face the inner quagmire of self-hatred?"  In fact, I not only got married, I gave up myself completely and adopted the life style of my husband as to avoid looking at Who I Am.  I became the person he wanted me to be.  I surrendered my wisdom to his choices and decisions.  I abandoned myself to his future, instead of insisting on building my own.
By no means is this a criticism of him.  No!  He was running away from himself too, he just expressed it differently.
But today, in my meditation, God explained something extremely important.  God told me:  "Human-to-human love cannot be authentic until there is Love between God-to-human.
Until you know and understand Real Love from God, you cannot direct it towards another person. Instead, what you direct towards another person is need, not love. It might feel like love, but it's not... until, and unless, you allow it to come into you from God first."

Now, I will teach this to my children.

A Message from God about Life and Death

Dear Friends,
Today I did a brief Shamanic journey with a skilled friend and during the journey, God's Light came into my thoughts and gave me a powerful message.
Many things have died in my life this year, as well as many new beginning have graced my space.  God said to me:

A part of spiritual mastery is being able to accept death.  This acceptance of death is a peaceful way of "being".  We need not push death away, ignore it, condemn nor reject it.  Once we can be in the space of accepting that everything dies eventually, then we can let go of expectations and allow new life to gently take over.  All death is an important component of a cycle, like night and day.  They work together harmoniously to bring life to one another.  Without the ending of day, we cannot experience the beauty of night, and without the rising of the sun to melt away the night, then we cannot be warmed and refreshed by the daylight.  This cycle brings forth the passage of time, for every night is different and every day is new.  They are never the exact same night and day.  This is because life grows during this cycle.  Every day brings new height to a baby tree and every night brings new new learning for a baby owl. 
All of death returns to life, maybe not in the exact same form, but it does return.
This, however, is not the same as killing.  Killing and murder are the forcing of death, which is an entirely different energy.  This energy does not spark growth nor love.
So allow yourself to sit quietly in the mist of an ending, a death, and allow the ashes to rain down upon you without trying to stop it, fix it or change it.  Just allow it to happen.  This allowance will cause the ashes to becomes seeds around you which will then grow into new life more swiftly than if you tried to control the process.  We cannot predict the exact nature of this new life, but by Being with it, you allow life to return effortlessly.

Surrendering to God

Surrendering to God seems easy, in theory.  The words sound pretty and the concept seems honorable and it makes us looks good to others.  We can say, "I've surrendered all of my problems to God."  This statement might make us seem open and pious, but does it really work that way?

Truly surrendering to God is not always easy.  It can be an agonizing process of breaking down the ego and admitting that we don't have all the answers.

And what does it mean to truly surrender to God anyway?

Surrender is reaching inside of ourselves to bring the Light of God into those dark places, the ones that are deeply hidden away from the rest of the world.  Surrender is showing God our guilt, shame, ugliness and mistakes.  It is admitting to God that not every part of ourselves is love and that not every thought in our mind is pleasant.  Surrender is letting God see Who We Are all the way through and allowing God to cleanse us with warmth and Light. 
Surrender is allowing God to take over a situation and committing to avoid complaint about the result. 

True surrender can be quite scary!  We don't know the outcome and we cannot predict where we will end up.  Yet there is massive beauty here too.  It is like throwing ourselves into a river and trusting that the rushing waters will somehow know us and take care of our well-being.  Trusting God is also loving God.  It is the ultimate love for God.  This is because God is our Co-Creator.  God is our best friend.  God knows our soul and ignores the ego-mind that just wants to fight and be right all the time.  Surrendering to God is admitting that we don't have all the answers and don't know the solutions and are asking for our Friend to step in and remind us that we are human.

Surrendering to God is Love.  And Love is what is scary.  This is because True Love is not passive.  It is highly potent and calls us powerfully into action.  Love is action.  Love is movement.  Love is speaking up for the weak and having compassion for the guilt, shame, ugliness and mistakes.  Love is accepting the truth.  Love is reaching out and making contact with the world and offering only good and peace.  Love is stepping out of our comfort zone and being of service to others.  Love is creating an environment around us that is strong and healthy.  Love is making a contribution to the world... and most of us are too lazy to do this.  And this is why surrender can be scary, because it requires more of us than we are used to giving.