Please Welcome Me

My femininity has been drained trying to survive. She is exhausted to the point of being almost non-existent. Now I am remembering she is there. She has been deeply ignored and lonely and craving acknowledgement. She wants love and joy. She has survived. She has done well. Now she wants to create. She wants to thrive and to dance. She was born this way! The spirit world is familiar and angels are natural. But where did she go? How did I loose her so profoundly? It was because I chose to take care of a man's needs over my own. A father, boyfriends and now a husband. I thought this was love, but now I see it was the opposite of love. It was destruction. I nearly destroyed myself. But I'm coming back now... slow and steady. I finally give myself space to grow rather than constantly trying to be everything to him. Time to thrive. Please welcome me.